So much in my life is "long overdue." In fact, I started writing this in March of 2014 and then I put it aside, so even this blog post is long overdue. Partly it's because I procrastinate. Partly it's because once I get behind, it can be very difficult to catch up. I think I've mentioned before that I was hit with a major depression several years back. During that time when I was so thoroughly depressed, I accomplished just about nothing. Things piled up. Things were left undone. I'm not sure I'll ever get out from under it all! It gets easier, of course, the further I get from the depression. But the thing is, even though I am WAY BETTER than I was, I'm not sure I'll ever feel ALL better. And I have to guard against that little piece of me that still is raggedy, because it would be all too easy to succumb.
"My depression is the most faithful mistress I have known ... no wonder, then, that I return the love." -Søren Kierkegaard
I want to "fix" a few of the long overdue things that were lost in the haze of the last several years. Particularly, I'd like to say thank you to some friends in Web Land. So many people have sent me little packages of love, I'd like to share some of those gifts here. So, today I am thanking: Cathy, Cecilia, Corinne, Debra, India, Jackie, Jody, Kim, and Mary.
I dread the possibility that I am totally forgetting some wonderful, generous Webland friend. It seems inevitable that I probably am. Whoever you are, please forgive me. xo
Also in the long overdue category is the way I treat my health. Not sure why I don't seem to truly learn that it is best to get things looked at sooner, rather than later. Probably the most glaring example was when I had colon cancer, and in my soul of souls, I knew it, but I didn't go to the doctor until I was practically a dishrag, barely able to sit up straight and talk about my symptoms. Would you like to know what kind of logic I was using, in allowing myself to put off going to the doctor? Here it is: Colon cancer is a very slow growing cancer, therefore I can wait. Seriously! I did not think: Colon cancer is a very slow growing cancer, therefore I can catch it early and get rid of it. Nooooo. Sometimes, I’m an idiot. But we can dwell on that some other time. For now, let’s enjoy the magical gift called LIFE.